anymore. I’m at this point with someone who I used to message daily and share some of my
inner deepest and darkest feelings with. And I can’t help but feel a little sad.
You see, a friendship triangle is never going to work really is it? The girl I used to have a close
relationship with also has a close relationship with a girl that I really dislike. I’ve tried to get on
with her but I constantly feel as though she looks down on me and that when it’s group chats,
my messages are dissected and ridiculed. The “friendship” makes me feel as though I’m back in
the playground and it’s not healthy.
In response, the friendship has slowly filtered out and I’ve realised that a real friendship would
not cause these silly childish thoughts on my part.
It is hard when someone you like gets on so well with someone you really don’t. The mention of
their name, a Facebook check in or anecdotes of their fun days fills you with dread as you don’t
know how to respond.
Is it jealousy? I guess a little part is. Why don’t they want to be THAT close to me? But in reality,
some people are never destined to be that. I am so lucky that I have a best friend and a close
circle of other friends that I trust implicitly. There’s no mind games, feelings of jealousy or
rejection just a solid relationship.
I don’t make friends easily. I bet after reading this you’re not all that surprised! However when I
do, I try my best. I’m honest and loyal but as I get older my tolerance and willingness to make
new friends is on the wane. I’m happy with the circle I have and whilst I feel sad that the
friendship with this lady has slowed died out, I now realise it never was that strong in the first